Black lumps on the horizon |
But I had ridden Kalu for almost the entire day yesterday and after soaking my foot in the glacial melt for a bit I thought perhaps I had a chance. As with any "summit" attempt, the idea is to head off in the dark and reach the peak at dawn. Pre-dawn usually means calm weather for mountains around the world for some reason, and there was of course the bonus of watching sunrise over the roof of the world. I woke at 4am, I wanted to beat the pack a bit and I knew I would take a long time if I made it at all. We set off in the dark, my foot felt surprisingly good and we managed to cruise up at a decent pace. By the time we neared the top I was in pain, but it didn't matter. I was going to make it. We were passed by two people hauling ass, but it turned out they were locals and had setup a tea shop by the time we arrived a few minutes later! Ahh, nothing better than hot tea at 5am to warm up in the chilly twilight!
Dhaulagiri |
From atop Poon Hill, the only thing that comes to mind are silly words like 'awesome' and 'holy f-ing crap!' Finally a ray of light appeared on Dhaulagiri's peak. The show had begun. It is strange watching our star's rays rise to touch the top of a huge mountain. Much like the sun seems to drop like a rock once it touches the ocean, so too did the light spill down the face of Dhaulagiri, almost fast enough to see it move. A few minutes later, the sun touched Annapurna South and then Nilgiri and finally Machhapuchhre. It occurs to you that its easy to tell which mountains are the tallest: simply watch a sunrise.
The colors were not as pink as what I'd seen at Mt Fuji, this was more golden yellow. But in terms of spectacle, it was one of the greatest I'd witnessed in a long long time.
Once the sun rose a bit more the show was over, the golds and yellows were gone. Reluctantly the pack began to trudge back down to Ghorepani. But it was just the start of the day, another 4-5 hour trek still stood ahead for most everyone including myself. After limping down and a great breakfast of muesli in hot milk with eggs and instant coffee, we were off.
But that's where the fun ended. As my guide warned me, "horse go up, horse no go down." Ahead of us was an hour and a half descent into the massive gorge we had just seen. I had developed a sort of technique for down-climbing, where I leaned on my poles and kept my toes over the rock steps to prevent my heel from coming down. In this way I didn't stretch my achilles too bad. But after an hour, nothing could stop it from starting to make that crunch noise. I had to stop. Ahead of me the path plunged straight down a row of steep steps with no end in sight. I suddenly felt very depressed. What the hell was I doing here? Why was I torturing myself? Nepal wasn't going anywhere, I could always come back next year when I was healthy and do this thing right. But instead I was grinding salt into my injury with another 8 months of travel ahead of me! I could have stayed on that beach in the Philiippines and healed up properly, swimming every day, watching sunsets on the floating bar every night. Instead I was fanatically attempting to snap off one of the biggest tendons in the human body somewhere in the bowels of a Nepalese jungle.
Somehow I made it down, and Kalu faithfully carried me back up the other side to Tadapani. I just finished soaking my foot in the glacier water and its starting to feel better. And I have a big decision to make. Do I push forward against all odds of success? Or do I throw in the towel, retreat to Pokhara, and console myself with some future return trip? At least that way I can try to heal up a bit before China.
All sanity and reason says the latter. But some primitive cave-man inertia in my animal brain wants to keep moving forward. I'm so close. I'm not sure why I listen to that voice. Tomorrow the answer will come, one way or the other.
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